Evidence to the possibility of a peaceful co-existence of our many truths.
my lesson the hard way
This may seem trivial to some and in the scope of the world it is truly small.
The reality of it is that I have been blessed all my life with a healthy family, and with that I have been spoiled as I have not had to deal with loss so close to my heart.
This last week has mentally been a challenging week as
Last Sunday morning I found my Big beautiful cat "Goat" dead at the foot of my studio, totally out of the blue
It had to be poison of some kind, or he got hit and ran back there and died overnight.
At this point I will never truly know
I have been blown away and suffering depression from it, I just can't believe it, it doesn't seem real.
The hardest part has been not knowing what happened, and dealing with the guilt of not doing all I could possibly to have prevented it, and then again maybe it wasn't my fault.
I had Goat for 3 years and spent more time with him, than humans, over these last 3 years.
as an Artist I work in my studio just outside my house so we were together all day and night.
To all the so called tough guys out there, I'm here to tell you,
you will be brought to your knees mentally and physically the first time you dig a hole and place your wonderful friend in there and cover him up yourself.
My lesson:
There is nothing in this world that means a thing period.
"except love"... "that is all there is."
Everyday you are alive, is another day to find the right place to give all your love away.
peace and love to all here
this day I give it to you :)
HM
after all "thats what our pets do."
The reality of it is that I have been blessed all my life with a healthy family, and with that I have been spoiled as I have not had to deal with loss so close to my heart.
This last week has mentally been a challenging week as
Last Sunday morning I found my Big beautiful cat "Goat" dead at the foot of my studio, totally out of the blue
It had to be poison of some kind, or he got hit and ran back there and died overnight.
At this point I will never truly know
I have been blown away and suffering depression from it, I just can't believe it, it doesn't seem real.
The hardest part has been not knowing what happened, and dealing with the guilt of not doing all I could possibly to have prevented it, and then again maybe it wasn't my fault.
I had Goat for 3 years and spent more time with him, than humans, over these last 3 years.
as an Artist I work in my studio just outside my house so we were together all day and night.
To all the so called tough guys out there, I'm here to tell you,
you will be brought to your knees mentally and physically the first time you dig a hole and place your wonderful friend in there and cover him up yourself.
My lesson:
There is nothing in this world that means a thing period.
"except love"... "that is all there is."
Everyday you are alive, is another day to find the right place to give all your love away.
peace and love to all here
this day I give it to you :)
HM
after all "thats what our pets do."
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Permalink Reply by Lori Lennox on -
HM/WC ~ I know that words from another can seem so small and distant when your own heart is breaking. Yet I offer "I am so very sorry" and "I hear and feel your pain. I wish I could take some of the burden of sadness from you". What a feeling of vulnerability that so many of us face ... to fall so deeply in love, knowing that loss is built in to the equation - eventually - if WE live long enough. The blessing of unconditional love that we receive from our pets is one of a kind- and I am thankful that you know that truth. This one's not yours to understand- and the reason why may not be yours to know - so just do your best to trust - and surrender to your faith. Thank you for sharing this experience and for offering this message of love. This day - I give mine to you. Bless little Goat's soul. Bless you, Lori
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Permalink Reply by Tawnia Stratton on -
I have walked in your skin, my friend. And I know the pain and trauma that you are feeling. I lost my french bulldog, Frankie in a simular way, he was only 3 years old too. I dug a hole in my backyard under a fig tree. It was more traumatic than losing my father in some ways. My heart goes out to you. And I agree with you about love. I try to give it away in little packages in a smile or deed to all those in my path. Especially the ones who do not know how to recieve or give it.
Take care of yourself, and I have recieved your message of peace and love. And I sent to you love and light.
Tawnia
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